5-12-12-The Day Before Mother's Day
Tomorrow, the day I've been dreading for weeks! Mother's Day! This was supposed to be a weekend of celebration and joy. A celebration of me becoming a mother in November. It is however, the 1 month mark of me beginning to miscarry.   A couple of weeks ago if you asked me how I was going to feel about tomorrow I would say I was going to just stay inside and hide a way all weekend.

But I'm not! I decided that I was going to go out and face the world. Sometimes the best thing to do is stare whatever you're going through right in the face. I may become a little sad but one thing that I've been doing to cope with my sadness is thinking of something positive, something I'm thankful for. I might not get to celebrate this Mother's Day as a mother-to-be but I have a very loving and caring mother that will be celebrating tomorrow and that make me happy.

 I found that taking it one day at a time, or to really be honest on a bad day, taking it one hour at a time and really getting down to the root of why I'm feeling an emotion helps a lot. I try to talk out my feelings or write them down. I know if I woke up in a good mood and later I'm down something had to trigger it. So I go on a search to figure out what's causing me to feel that particular way and it really allows me to clear my head and deal with the situation and bring my mood back to a peaceful state.